Have you ever found yourself in a place where you just don't care about spiritual things the way you used to? I have. I believe we all go through different seasons- some where we feel like we need God like our next breath and others where we just feel distant.
When I start to feel distant from God, I have found that asking myself these questions usually helps me figure out what is going on in my heart. I ask myself:
1) Is there too much junk (stuff that doesn’t spur me on spiritually) in my life?
When I have too much stuff that doesn't spur me on spiritually I fall behind. This walk with Jesus, just like my relationship with my husband or anyone else takes work on my part; it takes maintenance and care. I can start putting too much junk in my life and not even realize it is driving me away from God, that's why this question is a good one to ask.
2) I ask God if there is any sin in my life I’m not aware of?
I pray: "Search me oh God, try me, see if there is any offensive way in me and lead my in your everlasting ways." Psalm 139:23-24
3) I throw myself into His word.
I wake up early and read the bible even though the “want to” isn’t there. Not so I can check it off my list, but because my soul wants to desire God, to hunger for Him again, and I know I will if I dig into His all satisfying word; he will give me the want to.
4) Lastly, I pray Psalm 119 like this:
Jesus, How can a young person stay pure?
By obeying your word. Help me to love and obey your word Jesus.
Please don’t let me wander from your commands.
Help me to hide your word in my heart,
that I might not sin against you. Give me understanding and a will to love and obey your instructions;
help me to put them into practice with all my heart.
Make me walk along the path of your commands,
for that is where my happiness is found.
Please Jesus, Give me an eagerness for you
rather than a love for money!
Turn my eyes from worthless things,
and give me life through your word.
Reassure me of your promises,
made to those who fear you.
I believe in you and I trust you Jesus, give me the desire for you I once had.
I'm incredibly thankful that Jesus never gives up on us. Never. No matter how distant we become, the second we turn our hearts toward him; He is there to love us. He's a "good good father."
“Now there was only one hope, the sovereign grace of God. God would have to transform my heart to do what a heart cannot make itself do…..Only God can make the depraved heart desire God.” C.S Lewis