Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.
Ever since Adam's diagnosis, we have mentally explored the many angles of cancer, like I'm sure everyone does who receives the same call. We've asked, is this lymphoma genetic? Is it nature verses nurture: was it going to happen regardless, or is there a way we could have helped prevent it? And how do we do our best to avert a repeat?
The part of me that continues to be type "A", the small sliver that hasn't disappeared with the raising of three children and moving nine times, that type 'A' part, desperately desires a way to control this, to make absolute certain we don't have to go through this again. However, the part of me who has grown to love a God who acts in ways I will never understand, knows that no matter how much I desire to grasp tightly to my illusion of control, God's sovereign plans always win.
Why do we adore control the way we do? I believe it's because we desperately want to feel safe, we believe the lie that if our life goes exactly how we plan it, we won't have to be disappointed, sad, or hurt by anything or anyone.
Karen Ehman writes: "no matter which way you manifest your control freak tendencies, the root cause is the same: if you’re trying to run things, then you’re not trusting God."
I know God can be trusted, therefore I want to live like He can, with wisdom but without the longing to control.
Today's Verses provide some practical help for our worry and desire for control. They remind us to think on what we know to be true right now, not to think too far into the future or too much into the past. They also prompt us to trade our worrying for prayer. Sometimes I don't have the words, I simply realize I'm on a slippery mental path headed straight to an anxiety overload and I reach out to a friend who I know will pray for me. No matter how you turn to prayer the moment the worry hits, the point is that you turn there.
Often times walking with God isn't simple and doesn't feel safe. It takes serious discipline to set and keep our minds on the here and now, to thank God when life feels out of control, and to pray instead of worry. I'm not pretending it is easy, but I know it is possible. I'm certain the promise above is true. When I give up, loosing the grip on my illusion of control, and choose to pray instead of worry, He provides me with the most perfect unexplainable peace. Peace that satisfies and sustains no matter what circumstances I face today or how scary the future may seem.
In what ways do you feel like you are grasping for control that's not yours to have?
In what ways can you recall a time when you gave up control and felt God's peace?
Oh God, you are good and you are sovereign. Help us to trust you no matter what life looks like right now. Give us discernment to make wise choices, but ultimately rest in the good plans we know you have for us. Give us eyes to see our lives the way you see them. We love you Father and we need you. Thank you for your extravagant love and for being ever faithful.
"Extravagant" Meredith Andrews