Scared to Death

Have you ever been scared to death? I have. The first time God ever asked me to share about Him with a group of women, I was a wreck. Sweating. Shaking. I was a ball of nerves thinking about sprinting out of the room and never coming back.

On another note, movie night is our best loved night of the week. We snuggle up together with all the kids on our laps, and popcorn explodes in our living room (found for days to come). It is the highlight of the week for everyone. Last night we settled on “Prince of Egypt.” As I sat and watched in motion the story of the Moses from the bible come to life on our TV I was awed in a fresh way.

First and most of all, I would have never wanted to be Moses. Sheesh. He had a grueling and tedious job, much less life. Yet, the irony is, his relationship with God was unmatched in it’s richness. Why? I believe it’s because Moses constantly and consistently did the hard thing-saying “yes” to God.

My answer to the hard things God has called me to so often is, “Ok, but not right now” or “Are you sure? That does not make sense God, so that must not be what you meant.” But really, those are just excuses.

The first time God asked me to share with a group of women, I stuttered through it, and in my eyes, I completely flopped. (I really hoped I would never see anyone from that room ever again.) I told God, “I will never do this again.” In essence I was saying obedience to you isn’t what I thought it would be, so I quit.

This scenario may not be your story, but I guarantee you can relate. Whether it be making amends in a friendship, telling someone in your family how Jesus has changed your life, forgiving someone, or literally loving your neighbor, I’ll bet there has been a time in your life where God has asked you to do something beyond your comfort zone, and you just flat out didn’t want to do it. Maybe you tried and in your eyes you failed; or maybe you haven’t attempted yet, but the idea is still in the back of your head. Whatever your narrative, I know we can use the story of Moses to help inspire and empower us to obey God in the hard.

Moses was to return to Egypt and confront Pharaoh. Most likely Pharaoh was a family member of Moses because Moses was adopted into Pharaoh’s family at birth. Crazy. But God had asked Moses to return and to be brave to deliver his people from slavery.

And He wants to use you too, no matter what your background or qualifications.

Because remember Moses had grown up in Egypt, but as a privileged part of Pharaoh’s family, not as a slave. And also, Moses had fled because he had murdered someone AND Moses had some sort of speaking problem. The people of Israel probably resented Moses because of his upbringing. He definitely was overcome by shame at thinking of returning to the place of the murder and horrified about being a spokesman. Moses was the absolute last person we would have picked for the job of delivering the people of Israel, but God chose Him. God never picks the most qualified and likely candidate.

God delights in using the under dog, the one who knows they cannot do their task without his help.

Everyone’s purpose is different, your hard thing is never going to exactly mimic someone else’s. We all have our own path to follow and comparison will stop us in our tracks. But God calls all his people to hard things, because He wants to accomplish an extremely unique purpose through us. So, don’t give up or give in.

We never get to see the whole picture in the beginning of the story.

Tell someone you trust what is on your heart and request they keep track of you, asking what steps you have taken to get closer to obedience that week. Never does risky obedience feel easy or comfortable, but just like Moses, when we are scared but dependent on God, we know the richness in our relationship with Him makes the risk always worth it.

We may never know this side of heaven what our obedience accomplished.


“For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases Him.”
Philippians 2:13

“But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.”
1 Corinthians 1:27

“being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 1:6